Depression

Gear can certainly enhance your moods mate some more than others.

Tough times can be difficult to get through at the best of times.

Hope you get sorted soon.

Minger

I've talked to 23 people who have used gear as part of my work at the University of Birmingham and some of them say that gear can exaggerate their mood.  There is a little more about it on my blog - http://andrewjdewar.wordpress.com/.  
 
Im not an expert on loss or anything but it can be an extremely difficult thing to deal with.  If I were you I would try and talk to someone who isn't directly involved in the situation.  Sometimes just talking about it with someone helps.  
 
Hope things get better soon.

ime 19nor's (tren/deca) definitley make me depressed and anxious. i choose to not use them anymore due to it.
 
all other roids in haven't had an issue with.

Hang in there mate, what your feeling is very natural and most people go through something like it.
 
We are supposed to outlive our parents and many people are in relationships when it happens. She's lucky to have you there for support.
 
As said above, gear can amplify emotions sometimes so what you are feeling might not be as bad as it really is (if you know what I mean).
 
 

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I dunno mate i find that gear doesnt Really affect my mood and such, it can certainly affect the way i'll react to certain situations around me but in terms of whats going on inside my head, not so much.

I also find that when i'm achieving things in the gym via training i tend to be much more upbeat and positive in other areas of my life.

My advice is do what you need to do to stay happy and on top of things, whatever choice that means making, if it means dropping gear or changing gear or whatever, then do it, Secondly make sure you're there for her but don't neglect yourself either. Keep yourself happy and you'll be able to keep her happy and be strongerfor her when it matters... it's all in the mind this lark.

Chin up anyway buddy, things can only get better right? 

Take care 

I certainly have to add when I was selling my house the stress levels went through the roof...

I think if it wasn't for the gym and being able to blow off some steam and clear my mind I would have lost it. I was on tren at the time and Ye, it was interesting.

Use the gym as a outlet mate helped me sort my head out on numerous occasions!

Minger

Its a tough time for you mate... Im sorry to hear ther bad news.
 
Ive experienced a few losses last year, one really horrific one. I didnt fall apart because I felt I had to be strong for my wife, and I kept it all bottled up and appeared very numb/cold - despite I was being emotional and firm with my wife and giving her the support. Lets face it, a broken man + a broken women... wheres the strong support there? So anyway, after some time when my wife was more recovered, I felt it was time for me to grieve. Although this sounds very mechanical with an on/off switch, Im trained to do this with my job. When I grieved, I had the support from my clear thinking wife. But holding onto things for too long, it can bring the inner-c*nt out in you due to excess stress and fustration - and despite it can be justified, its a terrifying experience for those around you at the time. Believe me. Im still wracked with guilt over the household possesions Ive destroyed, and the shouting Ive done, and the terror Ive allowd close people to witness. Shocking behavior for a Nurse and family man..... but this is a testiment that we all react different to different stresses/traumas.... how we intervene and cope is the key, and its best picked up on ASAP rather than left for a while.
 
Whatever happens mate, try and talk to a "middle" person for now until you feel someone has empathised with you. DO NOT go to A&E and say you feel you cant cope or feel suicidal. Just seek a bit of counselling - this is what we need friends for at times. And try thinking about how your a strong person today from your own experiences, and how this strength will allow you to help heal your girlfriend and make sure your the solid rock in her life that she needs. A women doesnt want you to climb a mountain for her when she is emotionally down.... just be there, offer support and listen to whatever she wants to talk about. In fact, do EVERYTHING she wants to do. Those annoying films, those weird dinners, those strange talks, the unfunny jokes, the helping hand with housework.... just co-operate with whatever she wants to do. Nothing is dramaticly changing, your just making her life a little easier and going with the flow and being "fluffy" for her...
 
Remember these 2 things:
1) When we recover, we're seeking to get back on track to normality ASAP, so if she wants to go out with her girlfriends clubbing or wants to go out with you a little more - she is just expressing her desire to clear her head. Go with it, even if what she does seems a little eccentric or hasty. Go wild with her!
2) Whats going on now, its totally normal. 100% healthy and normal. Dont be afraid.
 
I wish you and your girl the best in a swift recovery...