LOL Welshy, yes, meanies
Dazc, at the moment I am so psyched up it's unreal. I was really psyched up for the finals and sort of had the attitude (which I didn't really post) that I was going to win and no one was going to stand in my way!! Publically I was saying just that I was my best and if I got beat then no one can take that away but I think had I been beaten I would have been a lot more upset than I was letting on!! I knew it was a reality that I could be beaten but I tried not to think about it.
I remember walking on stage (late due to bikini issue) and stood at the end of the line out of my numerical place and faced the audience with a front 'relaxed' stance with a sort of "here I am, get a load of this" sort of feeling in my head. To hear the gasps and comments being directed my way reassured me that I looked good and just helped me really focus on stage.
I've never really felt like that on stage as I've never been 100% happy with myself and it can affect your confidence. Reading this it seems so unlike me but it worked LOL!!
With all that in mind, I'm still raring to go for the next 5 weeks and although I am not expecting to win nor place I am happy to improve on last weekend and the target is to have ripped glutes

....and I don't mean a sexual advance towards Avril (aka ripped glutes) there

. Last years new pro Annie placed 7th in a line up of 11, I'll be happy not to be last
I think no matter what level you're at you will always strive to improve, that is the main aim of this game really. Trophies are bonuses. I do feel more pressure now to stay closer to my comp weight, not only just because I now have pro status but I've spent the last 3 years fluctuating too much and all the CV can take it out of you. It would be nice to cruise into a comp without having to do 2 hours cardio a day for some weeks.
We now seem to have found a formula to get my condition better, I have a good shape so the main step going forward is more mass!!