Muscle Girl - The Story (or, Mills and Boon with weights)

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Rachfit Total Posts : 2604 Reward points : 2312 Joined: 21/10/2009 Location: Nottingham Status: offline Read my TROG	Re:Muscle Girl - The Story 29 August 2010 19:00 (permalink) omg I am gripped.....cmon more please........!! *'You can only manage what you can measure'* Rachel France MT, DipITS, MBC, MBCA Master Trainer Specialist Biomechanics Coach (Low back & Resistance Specialist)
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stevenb Total Posts : 9607 Reward points : 2073 Joined: 14/03/2010 Location: scotland Status: offline Read my TROG	Re:Muscle Girl - The Story 29 August 2010 19:25 (permalink) now i,ve got to say . i,m in the middle off reading ARNOLD the education off bodybuilding i,m loveing the book but so far this is getting to be just as good chest : 42 1/4 arms :R 15 1/2 L 15 1/2" waist :29 1/4 skinney weee heeee bum :371/2 legs :R 24 1/2" L24 1/2 " http://www.muscletalk.co.uk/tm.aspx?high=&m=4689705&mpage=1#4689705
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dazc Total Posts : 24808 Reward points : 7692 Joined: 02/04/2003 Location: United Kingdom Status: offline Read my TROG	Re:Muscle Girl - The Story 29 August 2010 22:12 (permalink) type faster please! lol BODY TEMPLE GASPARI & SYNTRAX rep. My journal Biomechanics coach
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buffguymart Total Posts : 17 Reward points : 2862 Joined: 25/11/2007 Status: offline Read my TROG	Re:Muscle Girl - The Story 29 August 2010 22:24 (permalink) mmmmmmm very good reading!!.....I wonder if this certain person in his own living room is reading this???..........this could prove embarrassing for you mate!! :) <message edited by Hazel on 30 August 2010 14:00>
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Re:Muscle Girl - The Story 30 August 2010 12:14 (permalink)

December
I had never felt so alone. Dave hadn’t called me, my parents were away, my friends had fallen by the wayside as I concentrated on my training. Who was there? Tim. Sweet Tim. He would be training in the evening, he said, if I wanted to come round after for a protein shake.
I found Tim in his usual spot, in the power rack in the corner of the gym, pumping his huge chest. I stood and waited for him to finish his set. He sat up and wiped his face, gestured for me to work in with him.

“Hey honey” he said “Wow, you've put on some beef recently”
It was true, I knew it. I was on my second anavar cycle and my strength was rocketing

I lay down and tried to focus on the bar above my head. 60kg. Easy for me, now. But today it wasnt. It felt...heavy.

'Kate, whats up?' Tim asked as I struggled to make 6 reps.
“Oh Tim” I sighed. “ I feel like sh!t. I feel ugly and I feel soft. I feel I look like a normal person, not like a bodybuilder? I feel I have no definition at all. I KNOW it shouldn't matter for now, I know that in my head, I'm not dieting yet.
“Then when I get home and I'm cooking, cooking chicken and rice all the time, and everywhere there are dirty whey shakers and sh!t, and I think 'what the hell is this all for when I look like ****!'”

I gave up on the bench pressing, it was all flooding out now. Tim could see the hurt in my eyes. He had a way of always knowing when something was up. I hadn’t really mentioned Dave much too him, partly because I knew Tim liked me, and partly because I was embarrassed that my Super Personal Trainer Boyfriend wasn’t actually turning out that way…...but I told Tim about it now, who visibly fumed at Dave's disregard for my feelings. ‘ You shouldn’t pick for a boyfriend, someone who shouts at you, is horrible to you. This man is a w*nker. W*NKER!’ he spat the last word out in disgust

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micky Total Posts : 3857 Reward points : 5623 Joined: 09/10/2005 Status: offline Read my TROG	Re:Muscle Girl - The Story 30 August 2010 16:28 (permalink) Am gripped!!!! Micky McKay Personal Trainer Healthy Action www.fitness121.co.uk
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dazc Total Posts : 24808 Reward points : 7692 Joined: 02/04/2003 Location: United Kingdom Status: offline Read my TROG	Re:Muscle Girl - The Story 30 August 2010 19:05 (permalink) more more more!!! lol, have names been changed to protect the guilty? BODY TEMPLE GASPARI & SYNTRAX rep. My journal Biomechanics coach
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ravers Total Posts : 83 Reward points : 4139 Joined: 30/03/2006 Location: lincoln Status: offline Read my TROG	Re:Muscle Girl - The Story 30 August 2010 19:35 (permalink) OMG so good , am sat on my bike doing my cardio reading this !!! please some more its keeping me going, is this true!!! if so its great!! xx
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Re:Muscle Girl - The Story 30 August 2010 20:02 (permalink)

Dave eventually called me the week after Christmas, and my anger almost made me choke as I answered the phone. I couldn’t keep pretending I didn’t care. ‘Why didn’t you even call me on Christmas day? ‘ I shouted.
‘YOU KNOW WHY’ came the retort ‘WHERE DO YOU THINK I WAS??’

I was gobsmacked. ‘But I thought you’d ended it with her? Weeks ago?’
‘YOU KNOW HOW IT IS’ he yelled, so loud I had to hold the phone away ‘Don’t go bringing that up because YOU KNOW about her, and I TOLD YOU I would end it BUT OH NO, you aren’t even giving me a chance are you. Have some consideration for ME and how I FEEL stuck in a situation I don’t want to be in!’

I was stunned, absolutely shocked. He had flipped. It was frightening. I had had my heart broken before that was nothing new, but I didn’t want my dreams to come crashing down too. The competition was far more important to me than pride or hurt. I quietly whispered that I couldn’t carry on for the next 6 months like this, and I wanted it to go back to just coach and athlete.
‘GREAT’ he yelled ‘because I’m SICK OF YOU. Always asking the same questions, over and over, you need 24 hour care!!!! Bugging me all the time!’ Again it was like being slapped in the face- it was him who had called ME incessantly, 2, 3 or even 4 times a day. As for asking questions, well yes but was he not my trainer? Was that not what I paid him for?

By the end of the argument I felt like I’d had the life kicked out of me. I had trusted this man. I had told him, don’t start anything if you don’t want to see it through, because this, THIS, was exactly the thing I didn’t want to go through again. Hopes raised then shattered, leaving me feeling empty, wounded, and most of all, stupid. How could I have believed he was genuine? He had taken me for a ride right from the start. Marks words resonated round my head. He was lying that he was crazy about you…maybe he was lying that you could be a champion too…..

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Re:Muscle Girl - The Story 30 August 2010 20:11 (permalink)

Embarking on my first ever contest diet, my confidence plummeted to an all time low. Instead of the exciting time I had envisaged, my days became a black haze of depression that I recognized only too well. I could almost feel the fog that wrapped itself around my mind like blanket weed, making my head ache with disappointment and broken dreams.
My sessions with Dave continued -well they had to. I had nowhere else to go. I took a half day off work every fortnight, made the 2 hour journey to see him and absorb his expertise. But uncomfortable was not the word. His angry, bullying way continued . ‘Look at you’ he said. ‘Cant you even do your hair?’ as he told me what I would do that week. I was so scared to ask any questions that I stuttered and stammered and drove him even more crazy. ‘WHATS YOUR QUESTION?’ he would yell, and when I finally got it out he would sigh, and roll his eyes, and answer flippantly like he was reading out of a text book. I got so nervous I would come up in a rash the closer I got to Sandyford . My posing ability stagnated and then went downhill rapidly. Well how can you pose with a flourish in front of someone who has beaten your confidence to a pulp?

Not wanting to anger him with more questions, I emailed him suggesting he give me an outline of my general cutting schedule on a week by week basis, which would reassure me that the diet was under control, so I would not need to ask questions. I was surprised to get a phone call within minutes of sending it. ‘I got your sarcastic email’ the familiar voice yelled, and I started to shake. What had I done now? ‘I told you- TRUST ME!’

I shut up and did what I was told.

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Welshy Total Posts : 11824 Reward points : 5815 Joined: 28/10/2005 Location: Braintree, Essex Status: offline Read my TROG	Re:Muscle Girl - The Story 30 August 2010 20:27 (permalink) If I was allowed to eat popcorn I would be ! Keep going - this is fantastic reading... really hoping for a happy ending Training by www.fitness121.co.uk :: Diet by www.healthyaction.co.uk
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kitty Total Posts : 35913 Reward points : 7414 Joined: 26/08/2003 Location: Chorley, Lancashire Status: offline Read my TROG	Re:Muscle Girl - The Story 31 August 2010 11:24 (permalink) It's a wonder this PT gets any business if that's how he treats his clients!! Sponsored by Muscle Finesse
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charlotte.eva Total Posts : 19 Reward points : 90 Joined: 11/08/2010 Status: offline Read my TROG	Re:Muscle Girl - The Story 31 August 2010 14:35 (permalink) mmm i agree with kitty! hes an arsehole! more!! i love this story me and owain are addicted!! :)
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dazc Total Posts : 24808 Reward points : 7692 Joined: 02/04/2003 Location: United Kingdom Status: offline Read my TROG	Re:Muscle Girl - The Story 31 August 2010 17:13 (permalink) i think it could be made into a film! BODY TEMPLE GASPARI & SYNTRAX rep. My journal Biomechanics coach
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Re:Muscle Girl - The Story 31 August 2010 17:47 (permalink)

February
I found sanity through my sessions in the gym. I threw myself into prep, the hunger, the agony of legs overtrained by countless cardio sessions. I chanted to myself with every step on the cross trainer, my own personal mantra ‘If I can look this good (step step step) If I can be this fit.(step step step) I can take your sh!t (step step step)’
I saw my body change before my eyes. I saw abs. I saw veins. I saw magic happening right there in the gym.
One day I decided to go to my old gym again. I fancied a change of scene, I fancied seeing the reaction.

I looked through the window of the gym. It was full of men lifting, grunting. Some I recognised from the year before, some I didn’t. But the look on the face was the same, that intense concentration on physical effort, the self obsession that is not strictly vanity but a need within, to push the body nearer and nearer to its peak - that ‘if only’ ideal of strength and masculinity personified.

When I walked in I saw the heads turn. Those that knew me whispered to each other and I caught the words ‘it’s her’ - I knew that they were wondering where I’d been, and what the hell I’d done to look like I did now.
I went to the treadmill with a sense of returning to an old lover. I hesitated as I recalled how to start it up, but as it got going I felt the familiar uniqueness of this, my first machine, and for a moment lost myself in the ability of the simple rhythmic action to take away all pain.
A couple of minutes of gentle jogging and I was ready to get rid of a layer or two. As I took off my top I could feel the stares. My body was muscled, tanned, lean, my abdominals visible below a white crop top. I could hear the silence as weights stopped moving for a moment, an inward breath. I tried not to laugh, knowing the power I had for that moment in this roomful of testosterone. Did I want to play with it ? I could, I could get out there and outlift the boys. But I didn’t. Not this time. I just wanted to run, so I did, with a secret smile.

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stevenb Total Posts : 9607 Reward points : 2073 Joined: 14/03/2010 Location: scotland Status: offline Read my TROG	Re:Muscle Girl - The Story 31 August 2010 18:34 (permalink) welldone that girl .i,m realy loveing this chest : 42 1/4 arms :R 15 1/2 L 15 1/2" waist :29 1/4 skinney weee heeee bum :371/2 legs :R 24 1/2" L24 1/2 " http://www.muscletalk.co.uk/tm.aspx?high=&m=4689705&mpage=1#4689705
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mystictal Total Posts : 4428 Reward points : 4259 Joined: 20/09/2007 Status: offline Read my TROG	Re:Muscle Girl - The Story 31 August 2010 19:56 (permalink) A Dear Diedre photo casebook to go with this would be good. Stop. Hammer time. وَقْف. وَقَّتَ مِطْرَقَة Una loba en el armario http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CUVm1JzR274
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A.D.1 Total Posts : 149 Reward points : 2648 Joined: 02/04/2008 Status: offline Read my TROG	Re:Muscle Girl - The Story 31 August 2010 20:48 (permalink) great story..im gripped to it. need to know how it ends. 'A man can fail many times, but he isn't a failure until he gives up.'
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forddee Total Posts : 3889 Reward points : 4798 Joined: 03/12/2006 Location: West london/Wiltshire OORR. Status: offline Read my TROG	Re:Muscle Girl - The Story 31 August 2010 20:54 (permalink) Is this being done live ? And i hope we have some great pics at the ned of this . And then ??????????????? Daz Stars write up and pics http://www.muscletalk.co....s-page-2-m4209423.aspx
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Re:Muscle Girl - The Story 31 August 2010 20:54 (permalink)

Back at my usual gym, the changes I was making weren’t going unnoticed either, but it wasn’t all admiration. I was using anavar again for the duration of my prep, and I heard whispers behind my back. Tim warned me that some of the guys who had seemed so welcoming, weren’t being quite so nice when I wasn’t around. ‘They call you Arnie” he said “They ask if I have to shave your back”

It hurt, of course, but I focused on the weeks ahead. Dave still believed I could win. Our working relationship had improved, or at least I let him think it had. We were on friendly terms now - sometimes too friendly on his part - so I told him I had a new boyfriend, Tim. I had to smile at the irony. Tim wanted me as a pretend girlfriend, and here I was desperately pretending. Not that it proved much of a deterrent. I was looking forward to the show- I wanted to win- but just as much I looked forward to the day after - when I could tell Dave where to go.

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