Body dysmorphia

Do you struggle with this? My weight yo yos a fair bit depending on goals (I've been as low as 71kg in my boxing days) and I've been heavier than I currently am.

I felt the best at 71kg, however now I'm about 85kg people give me mixed comments from 'You look heavier' to 'you don't look that heavy'.

I legitimately have no idea how I'll feel when I get even heavier (which is my current goal without gaining too much fat like I did in thr past!)

I did a steroid cycle last year and hated it if I'm honest, so my mindset is clearer than it was back then and yet I still struggle.

I think a lot of us have this to some extent. When I was over 100kgs I felt I needed more.
As i've gotten older though I've had to diet back and size/bulk became less important.

6'3" 215lbs with a 6 pack and oblique cuts 37yo. Not so much worried about bulk as being cut and strong. The heaviest I have been is 227lbs and felt sluggish. It felt like every move was laborious. I could barely run 5k at 227lbs. Where I am now I can run a 5k and still pull myself out of a basement should I fall through during a fire.
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aaronjamesukuk
Silent rep, you must be massive mate.

Sure looks it from his avatar!

Ive always felt fat.

silent rep

dazzz
Ive always felt fat.

Are you? lol
 

Dont think so. At my worst im 14st 4 at 5"10

But even with 3rd place in last years shape up i felt like a fat disgrace with no muscle either

Couldn't a lot of our 'dysmorphia' stem from the fact that we crave progression?

I'm nearly 100% sure that I would be satisfied with the body I have now 5 years ago, however, as I change and adapt so do my goals.

Personally I think that element of any person (the drive and need to improve) is a huge positive in their character. Not everyone feels like this.