Im obsessed with bodybuilding
Hi all, good to be able to finally post again couldnt make any posts yesterday seems to be some forum problems !
im becoming completley obsessed with bodybuilding ! its kinda ruineing my life, im sure alot of you guys have also experienced this.
its not like i have a good body i have around 15-20 % body fat but i do have muscle on me, which you can see if i flex and im bulking atm so its normal to have higher bodyfat. i hope :D
but i take things very serious i try eat best i can i dont drink when im out with friends only somtimes and i compare everyones bodys to my own if i guy walks around i look at how big his arms are or how big his traps are ect, or i say to myself am i bigger than him? (no homo btw)
i keep looking at myself in everymirror i go past i think am i getting bigger? then if im not ill be disappointed and i just cant live with the fact that im not getting bigger, the past month has been pretty bad since i got back into a new gym ... then had to go to different city for a work thing then i got tendonitis then took a week of then got back this week thank god then i got sick so i havnt made much progress this month :( all i want is to be big ! and its killing me tbh..
im 19 my testosterone levels should be perfectly fine and i cant get steroids out of my head ! all i keep thinking is if i take steroids ill be huge, morally i couldnt take them id feel so guilty and obviously there are some health risks in the long term.
i do have an undecended testical which im concerned may affect my testosterone levels? but the doctor said it shoudlnt all the work has move to the other one which is perfectly healthy... im due to have surgery to get it removed in a few months.
to be honest i wouldnt even know were to get steroids, and i dont think i could put a needle into myself, im certain there are alot of guys in my gym take steroids tho since its a bodybuilding gym
so what does everyone else think ? anyone else think like this...