Nerves are good if you channel them in the right way. Nerves release adrenaline signalling your natural fight or flight reaction. You ain't running anywhere mate which means it's time to fight even harder.
What better way to smash this in front of a packed house. Just think of how you will feel afterwards having showed off all your hard work. It doesn't matter if you place or come last, the fact you stood toe to toe (all be it weird flexed one) on stage in front of so many will boost you far more than winning in front of 6 men and a dog.
Thanks for this. You're so right. A lot of it is mental now, which is another weak point of mine. Self-belief is a funny one; just as you start to gather some for the first time, you realise that, after all, you could in fact end up miles off the placings. So time to reset the thinking. Carry on with the mission to bring your best. If it's good enough, great. If it's not, it's not. I did everything and left nothing on the table.
Great stuff mate. My favourite parts in the pics are those lats and upper back.... I'd swear you could hold a pencil between those rhomboids!
Back pics are my better ones. Front pics and side pics, aside from my strongest pose - the most muscular - are weak and I don't like them. Rear lat spread is decent and there is plenty of detail in rear double.
On The Flop
Looking in great shape mate.
11/02/19 - LOWER 1
Leg press high and wide
100kg x 15 w
200kg x 4 w
250kg x 3 w
300kg x 2 w
410kg x 10 [last time 400kg x 10]
410kg x 10 [last time 380kg x 12]
Single leg press
110kg x 12 [last time 100kg x 12]
120kg x 10 [last time 100kg x 12]
62.5kg x 10 [last time 60kg x 12]
Leg extension [muscle round]
86kg x 4/4/4/4/4/3 [last time 86kg x 4/4/4/4/3/1]
Adductor [rest pause]
79kg x 15 /F/F [last time 79kg x 10, 66kg x F/F]
Single leg curl [rest pause]
R: 32kg x 9/F/F [last time 27kg x 13/F/F]
L: 32kg x 10/F/F [last time 27kg x 14/F/F]
Lying leg curl [muscle round]
41kg x 4/4/4/4/4/3 [last time 41kg x 4/4/4/4/3/1]
151kg x 30 [last time 151kg x 25]
151kg x 15 [last time 151kg x 20]
151kg x 15 [last time 151kg x 15]
Time: 1hr 15min.
Woke this morning feeling wiped out, devoid of energy, motivation etc. So where this workout came from, I don't know. Seemed to be OK once I got into the zone. Starting to feel like someone who does this properly, rather than for a hobby. PCA bandies around the word 'athlete' but I'm hesitant to use that for myself. But I do feel different doing all this now. More professional.
We started 100mg of stanavar yesterday too; 50mg anavar, 50mg winstrol. Still feel tired now as I'm writing this tho, could easily fall asleep on the sofa, but have to nip out to get more food to prepare before work. It never stops.
Posing practice, as I've mentioned before, has been happening every day for weeks now, usually after cardio, so about 12.30am or 1am. Little boy was sick the other night so, after cleaning up his room, I came back downstairs and took some more pics/videoes in a different light and managed to get this pic, which I've compared to about five months before I began bodybuilding, in May 2016. It's one picture I'm really happy with.
Left pic is May 2016, 196lbs.
Right pic is Feb 2019, 188lbs.
No prizes for guessing which one the missus prefers. She was shocked by my face this morning too; not because it's ugly but because it's bony. Cheeks sinking by the day now.
post edited by Eugene - 2019/02/11 12:31:52