@Shack, I wouldn't say that my issues are not psychological , HOWEVER ! why did you generalize them as if the heart palpitation is purely from my imagination...are you excluding the fact that I'm actually getting heart palpitations ? what about all of those guys on other bodybuilding forums that said they experienced palpitations especially on deca and tren and winny ? do they hae psychological probs as well which are causing the palpitations ?
I did go to my cardiologist , and he said you're fine ! I intend to go to a psychiatrist , but I'm hoping I'd still be able to run gear ...I mean it's like telling a four year old to give up chocolate.. it's not that easy... if you only knew how badly I hated my body and how f*ked up being rejected made me... I'm not that handsome , take it or leave it ! genetics ! I'm not that handsome but still I would never yield to a 5 or a 6.. I'm only interested in the 9s..I may be perfectionist but you cannot not desire a 9 that badly...
-as for the psychological problems: if you meant that self hate thing , well yeah I do hate my body , I have man boobs da fuq u expect , no chick would look at me.. and even if I didn't have man boobs , I wouldn't be able to date a 9, simply because if you want to have the elite , you have to be part from the elite...gold goes only with gold , it never digresses and chooses copper, these rich ass 9s and 10 models would only look at the top of top most attractive men , gear is my only bus . And my genetical features aren't standing out amongst other men , so a lot of others are prioritized to be dated , when people like me are on the low bottom of a girl's list of guys to date. I went to a behavioural psychiatrist and he said I have body image issues...well heck yeah ! I do , but everything is relative , so all women who do boob jobs , so do all guys who juice for non competing purposes just because they don't accept the way they looked b4. I'm not that stupid to be like , I'm ugly af but life isn't about that..and that I should accept my ugliness...that's like telling a poor guy to accept his poverty.
anyways...I'd strongly exremely advise you to type in google tren deca heart palpitations just to see what those guys wrote , I'd love to have your opinion on that..I'd really appreciate it.
post edited by Sartre - 2018/11/15 22:06:28